Today is my first day of blogging...

Not completely sure what I want to write about, but I do know that I want to journal my recovery from being just a survivor to being a "Thriver". 

I ended my chemotherapy almost 4 years ago, and my radiation nearly 3 1/2 years ago. I want my life to be as full of energy and life as it used to be.

I have started on my pink road to being Happy, Healthy and getting back that energy I used to have.

Today is day 3 actually.  

Here are my week one goals:
1. Start the pilates class - just go! don't be afraid of how inflexible I am or how much strength I have lost... just go to class.
2. Follow the Isagenix routine, at least moderately. So far so good. Since Saturday I am down 3 lbs. 
3. Create a calendar for the first 2 weeks of November that include at least 3 work out days and one day of complete rest. 

I find myself trying to do it all still and being lousy at it. Maybe I was good at it once upon a time, but now it just exhausts and frustrates me. My house is a mess, my diet is in shambles, I feel tired and fat all the time, no one understands where the "me" i used to be went to (not even me). 

I have to find a way to find me and find my way back. I need to learn to say no. I need to learn to take care of me first. 

I will get there. I just don't know how yet and somehow I have to be ok with that not knowing.

Following myself on here... venting, seeing some progress and some regression... I hope all the writing helps me make sense of it all.